Ander's Blog

Stop and Think (When It's all about trust)

2006-07-18T17:36:00.000+01:00

It's back. I'm not even back to school and i already feel holes burning through my stomach.

Went to the gym yesterday. made me feel fat. going back again today.

Bah i had a whole plan of what to write here and i completely forgot.
Oh well.

"Can't pretend that you're nothing special
You've got to look at all of your options
You can't decide what to go for
When it's all about trust (it's all about trust)
You see your self on the TV
You read your magazines
You can't explain how it's come to be this
Stop and think.
When it's all about trust (it's all about trust)

This coverage your centre spread
Your neon light daydream will shatter and break
And if you think I'm thinking of your value here
You're the one who's losing control

This eventual stop this, break in the mold
I scream down this hotline just to feel something

This situation, isn't getting any better
I see that look in your eyes
You want to see a pretty face
There isn't anything wrong with giving up
And for what it's worth, I still hate you.

This situation isn't getting any better, I see that look in your eye"

Red is the New Black - Funeral for a Friend

What to do when you suck

2006-07-18T05:21:00.000+01:00

I guess that could make a good book. But i could tell you now I'd never read it.

I'm not good at school.
I'm not good at guitar.
I'm not really much good at anything. Hell I can't even sleep right lol.

So i guess the question on my mind is what the hell do i do now...

Searching, Always Searching..

2006-07-16T17:20:00.000+01:00

Hoping for a change. I will never be satisfied.

I've started cleaning the room finally. I put a buncha stuff away into the closet, making use of the the thousand hangers i've got in there.

I bought a few new CD's yesterday from Bestbuy, only $12 a piece. Bargain.
Killadelphia (Recorded Live) - Lamb of God
IV: Constitution of Treason - God Forbid
A Death-grip on Yesterday - Atreyu

Now i know that last one didn't get the greatest reviews, but I still bought it just because I love Atreyu, and I like it. I don't care what everyone says about it lol, I still think it's a good album. Not nearly as hard-hitting or heart-pounding as The Curse, and it also doesn't feature the choruses that are extremely easy to sing along to while you're drunk at Asylum/Trash, but I still like it. It's different, which i what i was looking to hear on it. Good thing i read the reviews first, otherwise i'd be dissapointed expecting something like the last album =P

"We'll birth a new day with the death of an old"

Soon It will be how I ran for days with an evil embrace whilst I betrayed.

I learned a new word

2006-07-15T15:04:00.000+01:00

I like my google.com homepage. It has everything i need and some interesting stuff, like Quotes, and also word of the day.

"The mind of a bigot is like the pupil of the eye. The more light you shine on it, the more it will contract."
- Oliver Wendell Holmes Jr.

It's fun to learn, Cause knowledge is power!

30 Gigabytes, Black, and In-style

2006-07-15T11:48:00.000+01:00

Some of the words i could definately use to describe my new iPod. It's sleek, sexy, and I'm loving it. I was nervous that I'd have a lot of problems with it, but its been alright, after a few technical difficulties the first time i loaded it...
Since then it's been completely fine :)
I don't know what everyone means by "The headphones are too big" because theyre perfect in my opinion.

I've definaely had a lack of updates over the last few weeks, and its definately not because i havent done much, but the opposite, because I've done so much, and it does it injustice to write about it, so all the photos taken will be placed up on my flickr once I get the rest of them from Matt (hint-hint dude. lol ;)

Hannah went home monday and I've missed her like crazy since. It sucks going from having her around all the time and now I don't have her around at all :(

During her stay we did lots of stuff! Between driving around the area i live, trips nearly every day to New York City, and Hanging out with friends, It was a total blast, and I think Hannah definately had fun :)

My Birthday was friekin awesome. Went to a new restaurant (ive never been to it i mean) Macaroni Grill(piece. lmao) Up in montclaire where Matt & Bern go to school, and that was good. Food was good. We drew all over the table cover and i got to take it home haha. Still trying to find a way to put it on my wall...
Then Pirates 2 at Midnight. Godly. I loved the movie, i thought it was better than the first one.

Since then been doing alright. I aquired some baby turtles in Chinatown, so I've been taking care of those lol.

I noticed ive definately put on some weight during my stressful exam period, and that makes me sad. So It's to the gym with me starting monday.

I need an amp for my guitar. Hopefully ill make it to Sam Ash today and pick up that little portable one.

July Fourth 2006

2006-07-04T22:40:00.000+01:00

Haha this was definately a good Happy Birthday America!

Last night went down to NP to see the fireworks =) was a good nite. Chilled at Matt's just doin ish. Saw the ending to Evangelion. Was completely weird and i dont understand it, and i dont think anyone else in the room did either lol, but it was definately cool anyways.

Today had people over for a good old fashioned bbq. Matt, Kopes, his girlfriend Christa (sp?), Mike, and later Manny came over. BBQ was defiantely fun haha. Good food, good people, makes the best kind of night.

Some pics of the bbq:

Bloggers pictures are being a bitch. So those will come when i get to fix them.

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Update on Hannah's 1st visit to America

2006-06-29T08:00:00.000+01:00

So this is Hannah's very first visit to the United States of America! She's having an awesome time so far.. but lets tell it in order haha.

Friday.
Hannah got here around 6:30 ish. From there, we went back to my house, so she could have a shower. From the experience, i can definately say that after an 8 hour plane ride you definately feel like having a shower lol.

From there, we wen't out to Friday's... hehehe... friday's on friday... lol.
Had one of those meat lover's platters, and it was amazing. Hannah had JD Chicken... godly.

Saturday.

Today we took a chill day. Just chilled out, relaxed, sat around the house. was a bit boring, but then we went to the movies with Matt. Saw Click!
It was a good movie... the first half was funny, and then all of a sudden it got horribly sad and emotional... definately a tear jerker!! They turned it around at the end, and made it funny again, with a happy ending. Was a bit hard to laugh though cause you were fighting back tears haha.

Sunday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH!!! =D

Went to Hoboken & walked along the river and watched the city from afar.
Was definately cool. We got some chinese for dinner & went back to mine to watch adult swim, cause it's our favorite ^_^
I love Hannah more than anything. Just thought you all should know that ;)

Monday.

First trip into New York City for Hannah. We went to see Broadway Under the Stars...
We were too far away to see the stage, and the screens werent too big of a help either. Sometimes it was hard to hear it as well... but hey. what do you want for free?
It was a good night out anyway. Lots of fun =)

Tuesday.

Went back into the city! We ventured around a bunch of places. We went to see Madison Square Garden, The Manhattan Mall, and The Empire State Building.

We went all the way to the observatory on the 86th floor! that was fun and scary too.. Took a shitload of pictures of the city from up that high. We both got a little dizzy from it haha. Neither of us like heights very much... =P

But the photo the guy took of us came out pretty so we bought it and split the $20 between us. All in all a very fun day.

Came home to go to walmart. Definately something American that should be seen haha.

Wednesday.

Drove to the Garden State Plaza. It's been a while since i've driven, and even longer since I've driven on a highway... but i didn't do as badly as i thought. Luckily i havent forgotten how to drive haha.

Bought some ish... including Ring Openers for ball closure rings... (My Lip Ring) Cause it makes life so much frieking easier!! Then i got A7X Fingerless gloves b/c ive wanted gloves for frieking ever.

I also finally bought a Thumb ring! woo! need more rings...

Who knows whats on for tomorrow!

Photos on my flickr soon as i get around to uploading them...

To all my friends, please let me know if youre free any time cause i'd really like you all to come hang out with me and hannah, and for us to come hang out with you.

Night night

~ Ander x

Home

2006-06-11T08:28:00.000+01:00

I'm back.
Tired.
Sleepy.
I miss Hannah.

All for now x

Final Exam

2006-05-30T07:15:00.000+01:00

So my last exam is today! woo!

Still revising... or trying to lol.

I'll be so happy when this thing is over...

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Google AdSense

2006-05-28T16:51:00.000+01:00

As you may have noticed, i have added some "Ads" by Google :)

They're all in some way related to the content on my blog, so theyre not completely irrelevant. If you could, please take the time to click on one, since they help both Google and myself collect a bit of revenue :)

Thanks =D

~ Ander x

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Party In My Room, #2!

2006-05-27T16:18:00.000+01:00

Aite, so last night was my second room party this year. Went just as awesomely as last time! Was a different set of people though, I couldn't find Ash and Luke and everyone on my floor. Oh well, they missed out because there were activities with rated R content... lmao.

It started out me Mullen and Amy wanting to stay in and just chill out instead of going to Asylum cause Asylum costs money and we're poor!

So we got some drink, got together, and saw Dave outside the offliscence and told him about the party. He had some other stuff to do but then said he'd come by =D

Got back to mine, Amy had some stuff do to so mullen and i sat here pouring some snakebites whilst we were waiting, and just started playing different tunes on the guitar and just sat talking about it. Was a lot of fun. Next year is gonna be fricking awesome, living with Mullen Gill and Amy. We should totally have a house band. Would be really awesome to be in a band...

So then Amy came back, and Tom, Leigh, and Nia came round and was fucking awesome. Just chilled out, playing the "I have never" game. Some funnay funnay things were said, and i found myself drinking to a few of em...
<_<
>_>

Dave came round later on, and the laughs were nonstop till like 5am when everyone set off back to their rooms.

Was a really awesome night. Definately something we should do again.

Now tonight I'm off to pick up Hannah from her train cause she gets back today! WOO! And I Think I'm gonna get her a few surprises as well... =)

Tonight's Nicola's Birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLA!!!
Tonight theres a party in her room, and then we're off to academi! woo!

~ Ander x

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A post about a computer i fixed...

2006-05-26T17:37:00.000+01:00

Mkay i probably should have posted this back when it happened and was more relevant but oh well.

I put an ad up on our school's message board advertising computer help for a price a lot cheaper than the computer store in bangor.

anyway my first customer was a girl, who was having major problems with her computer. Failed internet connectivity, virus scanners that wouldn't work, the computer would shut down all by itself, and oh lord you wouldn't believe the number of problems she had.

I didn't think it'd be too big of a deal, just a usual virus scan, spyware scan, cleaning of all the useless files on the computer, temporary internet files, etc, etc, and also a registry scan.

I did all those and still the problems persisted. Her laptop actually shut itself off right in front of me twice lol. I took a look at it, and after looking at all her different settings i noticed that the program i've been using to clean the computer, ccleaner, which also displays the computers info, like processor speed, total RAM installed, and even the name of the video card installed, and the operating system. I found that she was running Microsoft Windows XP, SP1.... Service Pack One... I took a look at her drivers and windows update and her laptop hadnt been updated since 2001. Lol!

i immediately got it onto the internet and went onto microsoft update to get it to install all the updates it didn't have. The problems didnt end there though. Every time i tried running the microsoft windows update, it just wouldn't do a thing.

I tried it a good ten times before i gave up and decided to just use a windows XP SP2 cd and upgrade it that way. That finally worked, and then i got it onto MS Update to catch the latest updates. Those all installed fine, but the one thing that still bugs me was i couldnt get the antivirus program she had to work. She had McAfee Security Suite Version 9, which was all cool, except the stupid auto-virus whatever feature wouldnt work no matter how many times i reinstalled, and changed options, and even found the .exe file for it. still didnt work.

I gave up on that as well and gave her Windows Live One Care. That's what I use anyway, heh.

But yeah i should have posted this ages ago when i actually did it, but i completely forgot about blogging about it i think. Maybe i did, but not much detail. I dunno, i forget. lol.

~ Ander x

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Give Me Envy, Give Me Malice, Baby, Give Me a Break!

2006-05-22T03:49:00.000+01:00

This is how i sound when im tired + stressed.
It's not a good sound. I get emotional, and frantic.

"Come on, Come on,
This is screaming,
This is screaming 'photo op'.."

I'm trying to remember everything i can for this fucking Computer Systems exam that I have in five hours.

I found out today that Hannah's gotta pay a lot more than we had thought to get her passport renewed.
With that, she now has to go home by train tomorrow at noon so she can get it all sorted out.
She's not gonna be back till Saturday or possibly Sunday.
This isn't a bad thing, it's the only way she's gonna get to come visit me over summer, but at the same time, Fuck, man..
This means I gotta go the rest of the week on my own.
I've got two more exams this week after i fail today's (which i will) and the only thing that keeps me remotely sane is a hug and a cuddle from Hannah.
Fuxxor.
Trash is this week. Can't go to that.
1) no money.
2) I will have had an exam that day and ill just want to go to bed.
3) No Hannah means no date means ill be sitting there bored.
Trash has been really shit in recent times. Was cool to begin with but its now all the same fucking songs over and over and fucking over again. Takes them ages to get new material...
And its really not hard to get a free download of a band's new hottest single. It's called the internet. And I don't mean P2P, I don't use that shit anymore. I travel around Myspace every day and I get at LEAST two songs from bands i like for free download. Today, I picked up the two singles from Hoobastank's newest album "Every Man For Himself". Which I gotta say I'm dissapointed in, but I've digressed from my point...

There's even the alternative to the Summer Ball, the Trash Ball.
It's exactly like trash, except they have proffesional DJ's coming in, and possibly bands playing? Who knows.
Anyway, my point is I cant go to that either.
1) No money
2) I have my third exam this week the following morning so ill need to revise.
3) No Hannah again means no date.

I'm not really being fair. I'm using Hannah as an excuse when really I don't want to go to any of these events.
I just want to take my exams, and then pack up and get the fuck out of here. I'm hoping to be able to go down to Hannah's for a few days before I leave. Would be cool if Hannah's group are around to chill. Would be nice to see Hannah's friends again. Theyre a cool buncha people.

But really, honestly, I'm way overdue for summer. I want it. I crave it. I sweat it. I need it. Badly.

Honestly, What I really wanna do, is go to Matt's house, open up a can of Pepsi, Sit back and relax in his big comfy couch, and play some Halo. cough, and own him at that, cough

And also my mom got me a new bed! woo! I have a bed now! (We only moved into our current house over the summer, and since i left soon afterwards, it seemed pointless to spend money on a bed till now lol)

It's a double bed. So Hannah can come visit me and we'll both fit on it without dying.
I'm sick of uni work.
I'm sick of this fucking bangor weather, rainy EVERY DAY
I'm sick, literally. I've had an unhappy stomach for the last two weeks :(
I haven't seen any of my friends since exams started, which isnt a help, but i know if i went out i'd never do work.
I'm listening to Panic! At the Disco cause they make me happy.

"Have some composure,
Where is your posture?
Oh, no, no...
You're pulling the trigger,
Pulling the trigger all wrong..."

I just want to go home :'(

2 down, 4 to go

2006-05-21T13:46:00.000+01:00

Next exam is tomorrow. today will be spent revising >_<
Finally got around to listening to the Still Remains album, Of Love and Lunacy...
It's fucking amazing. I love it.
If you're a metal fan, and like bands such as Killswitch Engage, Chimaira, Caliban, or Atreyu, Still Remains is definately a band for you to check out.
Their album, Of Love and Lunacy is up for a Golden Gods Award, for 'Best Newcomer' from Metal Hammer.
They definately got my vote :)

Too Many Doses

2006-05-15T19:14:00.000+01:00

It's official. My favorite guitarist is definately Zacky Vengeance of Avenged Sevenfold.
If you check out his site there, he's got Vengeance University t-shirts for sale. Definately something to add to the birthday want list. Speaking of which? I need to make one. Hannah wants me to cause she has no idea what to get me for my bday. Just as well, i have no idea what to get her for hers!
Haha, I guess we'll figure it out.
I wonder if theres somewhere you can make a custom wish list. Amazon has one but there's not much on amazon I'm looking for lol.
Matt, any suggestions?

So I promised Pictures of my Guitar. K here we go...
Sorry for the random crap around but I've had no time to sit and clean it. maybe once exams are over... but then i have to pack up and move into my house. Oh well lol.
SO yeah thats it. Squire Showmaster, by Fender.
I love it :)
The picture doesn't do justice to the color. it's not a solid light blue like it looks. it's a deep, metallic royal blue. Sweet color.

I've learned four power chords thusly far. E5, A5, G5, and C5.
...and my fingers hurt. Particularly my ring finger lol. the book it came with is teachin me how to move the chords, and sliding your fingers up and down the chords is cause for friction burns! lol.

It's a lot of fun learning it though. I'm enjoying it thoroughly =D
Definately something I'll be doing over summer. I can't wait to start downloading tabs and playing along to my favorite songs. will be a blast!

Quick update on life. Had my maths exam. Everyone feels like they failed it haha. I hopefully passed. I only needed to get a 50% on it to pass the module, so hopefully i did that!! Wednesday, it's on to Digital Circuits & Design... that one's gonna be hell. it's the only class that I really do not understand... ...at all. Lol, woops!
I ordered a book that's incredibly helpful with it, its getting here tomorrow. gonna revise like a mofo then.

Went to get lunch at the Yellow today. Goooooodddd shiiiiizzzzzler. Got a Scream Burger. Fucking godly.

I bought peanut butter and I've recently been putting away the PB&J's. Gonna go make one now.
Till next update.

Keep safe,

~ Ander x

Good Quote

2006-05-14T16:40:00.000+01:00

Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
- Robertson Davies

I like that one a lot.
Revising for exams. Fun fun fun.

Monday May 15th - Mathematical Methods II
Wednesday May 17th - Digital Circuits & Design
Monday May 22nd - Computer Systems
Wednesday May 24th - Professional Perspectives
Friday May 26th - Systems Software & Architecture
Monday May 30th - Circuit Design
Friday June 9th - I Fly Home :-)

Quick update

2006-05-10T15:58:00.000+01:00

Guitar came! woo!
Need to copy notes from Joey in the library and then bring them back to him tonight.
Im exhausted. Slept for one hour last night. Hurray!
Played with the guitar. I can say im gonna have fun learning it :)
It's sexay. Photos later.
Did i mention 1 hour of sleep?
Going to the library now.
It's hot as HELL outside.
Definately Changing to shorts...
Update tonight when i get back here.

~ Ander x

And I'm Back

2006-05-08T16:46:00.000+01:00

Hehe. Haven't Updated since the 24th April... woops.
To be honest I really haven't felt like it. Dunno why. Guess It was just a phase cause I'm back now, aren't I? Yeah.
Anyways, so lectures are over now. No more lectures until next year! Woo!
Now I've got what's called a "Reading week". A week to get your assignments in, and start revising for exams which start a week today... eek! Oh well. I think they'll go alright. I plan to actually revise this time around lol.
Got an essay to hand in for tomorrow. Fuck. Haha i hate this shit, but whaddya gonna do, eh?
Everything otherwise has been good! I've ordered a guitar off of eBay recently. I'm well happy with that, the only problem is its being shipped to Hannah's in Alderholt. D'oh! The people said they have to ship it to where her cc is addressed. Oh and we used her card because mine didnt work on the UK eBay site. They attempted delivery today, but Hannah's Parents both work, and her sister is in school. Fuck. Apparently they have to call the depot now and set up a time for them to reattempt delivery. Im hoping they can just redirect it because that would be sweet.
And if you'd like to see the model, It's a Fender Squier Showmaster NLT in a Cobalt Blue. Everyone was like "Dood get the black one" But of course I had to be different. Plus that's my color scheme. Mostly black with some cool blue accents. My new lip ring which I aquired when i went to Bournemouth, in a shop called Paradox is a Blackline BCR with a dark blue metallic titanium ball. So, i figured I'll wear Black Clothes and play a blue guitar :) Just to not have a black guitar. Cause everyone and their mother has a black guitar haha.
Anyways im hoping that will get up here soon... so I can find out how much it costed and pay Hannah's parents for the shipping costs.
Im Looking forward to going home. I hope to get a job in hot topic. It's probably the only job where I wont have to spend half an hour in the morning switching my lip ring for a clear bioplast stud to "conceal" it.
And plus if i get to stay with hannah before i come home, Im getting a snakebite piercing (A lip ring on the other side of my mouth) so i'd need two bioplast studs.. lol.
There's New Photos on my Flickr account, so be sure and check those out and comment :)
Im off to get dressed and buy some food. my kitchen is wiped. See ya later!

I'm Back

2006-04-21T13:16:00.000+01:00

...and surprisingly enough I really don't feel like updating.
I've got stories to tell, and pictures to show..
But I think I'm going to wait and see who wants to know.

Dance to This Beat of Goodbye

2006-03-30T16:40:00.000+01:00

Kay so I think this is my last day in my room. Tonight will be spent mostly packing and then I'll be going to Hannah's for the night and then tomorrow I'll go to my lectures and then chill till Hannah's 'rents come up.
I'd like to chill with everyone before we leave, so please send me a text if you feel like chillin before easter.
Hannah's house doesn't have internet at the moment, so I'm not gonna be online, or checking my sites, or anything for a month. I'll go to the library every now and then to check emails but I think it will be nice to get away from it all for a while..
So, until I get back..

Time to Dance... x

"Have some composure,
where is your posture?
Oh, no, no..
You're pulling the trigger,
Pulling the trigger all wrong"

Myspace being used as a method of activism?

2006-03-30T01:44:00.000+01:00

Apparently so! Tom, Administrator of Myspace.com made a post today with a link to a news article stating this:

"Thousands of students walked out of classrooms across the nation on Tuesday to protest proposed changes to immigration law seen by many as a crackdown on illegal immigrants. In California's Central Valley, protests are coordinated among remote agricultural towns by text messaging and MySpace chat rooms. Sasha Khokha of member station KQED examines the grass-roots protest organization and what the students are protesting against."

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I want

2006-03-28T23:09:00.000+01:00

To Go Home.

A Rant. Don't Like it? FUCK you, hows that.

2006-03-27T03:18:00.000+01:00

Here it comes.
I feel it coming.
Happened last semester, and i believe its gonna happen every semester.
The time when I start to get bored of life.
I don't want to go to classes.
I don't want to do work.
I just want to go home.
I love my friends here.
Some of em are the coolest people I've ever met.
But I miss my NJ friends.
It sucks I can't go home on weekends all the time.
It sucks that I can't fucking come up with $600+ every time I feel like going home.
It sucks that I don't have the kind of money a lot of others do.
It sucks how some people are even poorer than I am.
It sucks how hard it is to travel around here.
It sucks that I'm meeting my girlfriend's parents in five days and I'm nervous as fuck.
It sucks that I'm starting to lose faith in blogging.
It sucks that the world spins, whether or not I'm a part of it.
It sucks that people forget you very easily.
It sucks that I look at the world without time. Happened yesterday, ten years ago, doesnt make shit difference to me. If I've met you once, I'm gonna remember you for the rest of my life. You'll never remember who I am when I come up to you in ten years and say "Hey dood, how's you?" But to me, it doesn't matter how long its been since I've seen you. I still know who you are, and if you had any sort of operational memory you'd remember who the fuck I was. But you don't. And you won't. And there's nothing I, or anyone else can do about it.
Anyway, back to my suck list.
It sucks that I'm not like everyone else. It's the mass that always continues on, not the others.
It sucks that I don't have money. Said that? Oh well, just means it really sucks.
It sucks that EVERYONE I meet has to make an American joke. Do I go up to you and say "Hey man, ever heard of braces?" or "Damn girl, learn to move those hips or something!"
DO I? NO! SO DON'T SAY SHIT TO ME! I GET IT! I'M AMERICAN! BIG FUCKING WOOP! You think that every other country likes Britian? HA! Remember all those little countries that you said "Hey, we think we're cool, so we're gonna just come over here and take over your whole society because we can" Like you? They fucking hate you're guts. No matter what they say. It's every countries policy to smile at everyone no matter what.
Anyways, enough of my country rant.
You see me in the street, or in the classroom, or in a club, or whatever, please do not make the first thing you say to me be "blahblahblahblahblahblahAmericanblahblahblah" Cause you can shove it up your ass. And I'll do just that with my foot if you start talkin a mess.
I'm listening to Eminem. Cause He sounds pissed off. And I am too.

I Like matt's blog. He talks about so much technology and explains everything, it could damn well serve as a "learn2tech" newsletter. But one thing bre, we never see any of you. It's all tech talk now, and very little matt. Not that that's wrong, it's your blog, do what you wish with it, but in my opinion I'd like to see more of you on it.

I Like bern's blog. Her blog is all about her, and her thoughts, and her opinions, etc. I like that. See that whole ramble up there? That's me. That's a window into my head. Those thoughts go through my head every damn day.

I want to go home.
I want to punch someone.
And I want to walk away.
And Never Look Back.

No comments here. I really don't want responses. The purpose of this post is to update the world on how I'm feeling, and to just have that thought sit in the back of their head whenever they see me.

Good day to you.

>>EDIT<<
JUST FUCKING GETS BETTER, DONT IT?!
I just got this comment on my last post, the one with the graphiti pic.

Anonymous said...

y your blog has so many bad words

3:43 AM BST

Kay, ready? You listening? Reading closely? Yeah? Okay.

THEN DON'T. FUCKING. READ IT.
YOU FUCKING CUNT!!

Graphiti

2006-03-27T01:30:00.000+01:00

Originally uploaded by mcculliwog.

Alex visited a skate park recently, i think, and took pics.
Some sick GFX there..

Hannah is on Blogger!

2006-03-25T13:30:00.000Z

Here she is!
Please excuse the fact that her blog has very little on it at the moment. I didn't have a chance to fix it up nice, and the thing was created during last nights drunken randomness. She did post to it, however, and its not a bad start to someone completely new to blogging :)

I have set up an rss feed for her blog though, and it can be found Here.

I plan to help her out, fixing it up, maybe teaching her a little tech talk and such. I might even start her out with her own flickr account just to get her her own badge for the sidebar lol. I dunno, can you tell the badge to only show certain photos? Then she could have one that shows the pictures she's in from my flickr.

Just a sidenote, this is my 100th blog post! woo! Go me!

Hmm. Just a little feedback reflection on my podcasting. I showed it to a few friends of mine, Ian, Emily, and Metal Dave on thursday. They seemed like they thought it was a cool idea, though i can definately say that listening to podcasts is definately not something to do at a party unless you've got Dane Cook as your guest star...
...Or a room full of nerds, whichever you've got handy, hahaha.

Hmm, probably gonna go set up Hannah with a bunch of other snizz for her blog so when she wakes up she'll go O.O lol.

Peace x

Technorati : Blog, Blogging, Flickr, Friends, Podcasting, feeds, rss

Podcast 2: A Double Takes Makes Things Clear

2006-03-23T11:30:00.000Z

A Second Podcast, By Ander. First half speaks about my blog, a little recap on the last post, and the second half speaks of some more personal effects, such as my schoolwork, and some feelings of nostalgia and being a bit homesick.

Enjoy!

Technorati : Electronic Engineering, Friends, Home, Lab work, Nostalgia, Odeo, Podcast, School, iPod, iTunes, mp3, mp3 player

iTunes Approved

2006-03-23T09:14:00.000Z

This morning I have awoken to find an email in my gmail inbox informing me that I have been approved by the iTunes team as a podcaster, and my casting can be found through the iTunes Music Store right here for the world to access. Amazing. Now anyone with the program iTunes can access it, download it, put it onto their iPod, or any mp3 player they happen to own, and be able to listen to it at home, at work, in the car, on the train, bus, anywhere they feel like it. Just like a radio show, but a lot more personal and just plain better, I feel.

Matt does a very good job explaining all of this on his first official podcast on his blog. He talks about everything I've said in greater detail, and also explains, for anyone new to the program, what iTunes is, and constantly stresses that everything you see us doing, our podcasts, music stats, everything you see on our website (set aside our flickr badge) is completely and totally FREE.

I'm still amazed by all this, and it's got me much more motivated to keep my blog updated, and such. I plan on creating my own podcast for this little update, and maybe later if i can get Hannah to come over, create my very first podcast with more than just me on it =O Amazing.

Technorati : Gmail, Odeo, Podcast, email, iPod, iTunes, mp3, mp3 player

Podcast 1: First Draw, First Blood (An Introduction)

2006-03-22T19:22:00.000Z

First real podcast. Hope you enjoy! Feedback is much appreciated ;)

My Odeo Channel (odeo/538add8178434292)

Technorati : Odeo, Podcast

Testing Zoundry Shizz

2006-03-22T18:14:00.000Z

Testing this Zoundry stuff out out. Hopefully it works? We'll see wont we.

Anyways, im looking forward to getting this all working correctly. I've added a test podcast, so let me know if that works.

Maybe it makes me a nerd but i think all this stuff is awesome. The fact that you can record your own voice for a blog with Odeo is just friekin cool man.

I want to eventually get that iTunes link like Matt has. Working on it! More updates later...

Technorati : Odeo, Podcast, iTunes

Podcast: 0 - Testing Odeo

2006-03-22T16:24:00.000Z

Added another module

2006-03-15T21:58:00.000Z

For links to friend's blogs, whether they be blogger, livejournal, or xanga. I also got into that plaxo shiz that matt started so ill make links for that soon. and that chatbox he has is sweet too!

Better update later haha.

Sometimes you wonder

2006-03-12T00:24:00.000Z

Whats real and whats not.
Who's there's and who's leaving words in place.

R.I.P. The Notorious B.I.G.

2006-03-09T21:19:00.000Z

Remembering the late great

Notorious B.I.G. on this tragic day March 9th.

"Ain't no other king in this rap thing.." - B.I.G.

Coca-Cola Cherry

2006-03-08T11:04:00.000Z

That's what im drinking. I'm sitting in the computer lab cause I've got an hour break before my Systems Architecture lab.
Meh. Just got back from a Digital Circuits tutorial, and i have no fucking clue whats going on in that class. This weekend must sit with the book i got from the library and crack down on it. Take shitloads of notes so I can actually pass it haha.
Going to see my tutor later so I can write down my grades from last semester so I know what I've gotta retake.
I don't really mind retaking exams. I'd retake all of em if it means a better grade lol.
I'm so friggin tired. Couldn't sleep again last night. Sucked balls. I hate sitting there tossing and turning all night with thoughts racing through my head. I just laid there cuddling Hannah, and either watching Futurama, or Listening to Trivium.
Listening to Atreyu at the moment. I'm addicted to these two bands. Definately gotta see them live.
Next year I hope to have more money cause my mom's putting in for federal aid, and we might take out a bigger loan to help pay for my shiz.
And hopefully the rent for my house won't be as much as it was for halls. I did well last semester, after paying tuition i got left with about $1200 and that carried me the whole semester. the last of it got spent in the airport when i bought some stuff in the shopping mall... lol.
And plus i was going out almost every night, and buying shitloads of drinks, which isnt smart. if youre gonna drink, its best to pregame lol.
My moneys stretching a lot farther just cause 1) im not going out nearly as much as i was last semester, and if i do, 80% of the time im not drinking, and if i do, i buy alchohol from an off-liscence rather than paying £2+ a drink in a club.
So it should be all good next year, i hope. The rent being cheaper than halls fees, i'll be left with more than i was last time =D
Meh, I miss Hannah. Having a random splurge, she's amazing. She's really good to me, and the most caring girl I've met. She never hesitates to do anything for me, and never expects anything in return. She's anti-pink. She's pure metal-head. She's deliciously evil too ;) and isn't afraid of kicking my ass. I love it.

I updated my Flickr with lots of old photos from like years ago. Including HS graduation. So check em out, comments appreciated.

My 30Boxes was also updated. Thanks to Matt's Post about it, I learned of the bi-weekly update and stuff, so that's been fixed :)

Okay, i think this entry is random enough, so im gonna go goof around till my lab.
Laters xx

Can't Friggin sleep

2006-03-07T04:31:00.000Z

Meh. Oh well.
Updated my 30Boxes Calendar with my schedule. Unfortunately they don't have a "Repeat every other week" option which is annoying, so i can't show how my weeks differ depending whether they're odd or even weeks. Hmm. Made notes if they're every other week tho.
Hmm. I keep trying to sleep but i can't. Had a more or less unproductive day. Went to lectures, but thats not very productive at all. Tomorrow hopefully i can finish up some labs, but if i don't get to sleep soon, ill spend the whole day in a friekin daze. :(
Gill got put in the hospital! O_O She hurt her back bad when she was surfing... and now she's totally hopped up on morphine. She says its not doing much for the pain, its just making her hallucinate and its scaring the crap out of her.
>_< Crazy.
Anyway, im gonna go try and sleep. Hannah seems to toss n turn when im not over there lol.
Nightz.

Asylum Friday Night

2006-03-05T15:10:00.000Z

Metal Dave + Ander
Originally uploaded by Ander X.

Was Fucking Awesome. Everyone had a good night that night, most of us were out, even Coop, who's been short on fundage lately!
They played good music too. Theyve switched their system around... they play good songs every now and then now haha.
The only thing we need to do is stop that fat guy with the red hair from playing pure ska for 45 mins. straight... one or two is okay, cause its fun to dance (skank) to when you're drunk, but anything more than that just puts a hole in your head >_<
All in all a good night! Chilled with Hannah, Helen + Metal Dave before we went out, just talking, listening to musics, and drinking a few.
Last night (Saturday) We went over to Dave's and watched Starship Troopers. Funny, Gorey, and Stupid all at the same time. Other than that, just senseless shooting. Lol.
Tonight? Dunno, still in the works =P
But atm there's a sexay lady behind me who wants attention, so im gonna go...
Laters
~Ander x

Snow Day #2!!

2006-03-02T22:54:00.000Z

WOO! MORE SNOW!! My department was open today but the main lecture i had today got cancelled, and i doubt anyone would go to the other one with how much it was snowing.
Tomorrow my 9am got cancelled! w00t!

SHiPJiN3 (10:46:40 PM): yoo
Its Korun (10:46:59 PM): yo
SHiPJiN3 (10:47:07 PM): wudup booray
Its Korun (10:47:43 PM): my class for today has been canceled
SHiPJiN3 (10:47:52 PM): sweet
SHiPJiN3 (10:48:01 PM): my classes for both today and yesterday were cancelled
SHiPJiN3 (10:48:08 PM): and my 9am tomorrow is too :-D
Its Korun (10:48:12 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (10:48:35 PM): its supposed to snow again tonite O_O
Its Korun (10:48:56 PM): nbn
SHiPJiN3 (10:49:19 PM): ikb
SHiPJiN3 (10:52:23 PM): hmm report says from 4am till 9am
SHiPJiN3 (10:52:29 PM): sweeeet
Its Korun (10:53:01 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (10:53:29 PM): my xmas lights in my room died :-(
Its Korun (10:53:42 PM): xmas?
Its Korun (10:53:44 PM): dooood
Its Korun (10:53:47 PM): lazy ass
SHiPJiN3 (10:53:55 PM): lmao
SHiPJiN3 (10:53:59 PM): nahhhhhh
SHiPJiN3 (10:54:05 PM): i use em for decorationnnn
SHiPJiN3 (10:54:10 PM): makes my room look cool
SHiPJiN3 (10:54:16 PM): but now its all dark n crap :'(
Its Korun (10:54:51 PM): blows
SHiPJiN3 (10:55:23 PM): OMG
SHiPJiN3 (10:55:39 PM): hannah rippe=SHiPJiN3 (10:56:09 PM): lmao
SHiPJiN3 (10:56:12 PM): she ripped one
SHiPJiN3 (10:56:46 PM): but well forgive her
SHiPJiN3 (10:56:48 PM): :-P
SHiPJiN3 (10:56:59 PM): rofl she tried stopping me from sending that
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:04 PM): and then ended up hitting send herself
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:05 PM): XD
Its Korun (10:57:26 PM): LOL
Its Korun (10:57:30 PM): balows
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:39 PM): shes mad at me now
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:40 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:47 PM): and flipping me off
Its Korun (10:57:53 PM): bites fo yo lyfe
SHiPJiN3 (10:57:57 PM): lmao
SHiPJiN3 (10:58:03 PM): bites fo my noze
Its Korun (10:59:10 PM): >_> sure
SHiPJiN3 (10:59:24 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (10:59:30 PM): neways what u been up to
Its Korun (10:59:42 PM): commiting dietary suicide
Its Korun (10:59:48 PM): rattskeller style
SHiPJiN3 (10:59:51 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (10:59:55 PM): nbn
Its Korun (10:59:55 PM): lololol
Its Korun (11:00:01 PM): i feel
Its Korun (11:00:06 PM): humongous
SHiPJiN3 (11:00:13 PM): L A W L
Its Korun (11:00:15 PM): and filled with Mozz sticks
Its Korun (11:00:18 PM): LOLOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:00:28 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:01:41 PM): this is currently being blogged about
Its Korun (11:02:56 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (11:04:39 PM): http://iloveyouander.blogspot.com/2006/03/snow-day-2.html
SHiPJiN3 (11:06:46 PM): ive been committing dietary suicide as well
SHiPJiN3 (11:06:57 PM): eating potato chips like nobody's hobags
SHiPJiN3 (11:07:12 PM): ooo today we had a lazy dinner
SHiPJiN3 (11:07:15 PM): made microwave meals
SHiPJiN3 (11:07:21 PM): indian style
SHiPJiN3 (11:07:29 PM): hence stinky farts
Its Korun (11:08:07 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:09:11 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:09:23 PM): yeah... we're gunnin for the ozone tonite bre
Its Korun (11:09:49 PM): nice
Its Korun (11:12:28 PM): dude haircut this weekend
SHiPJiN3 (11:12:42 PM): NOOOOOOOO!
Its Korun (11:12:44 PM): first time my hair has been touched by a stylists hands since july
SHiPJiN3 (11:12:44 PM): DONT CUT IT
Its Korun (11:12:47 PM): im not
SHiPJiN3 (11:12:47 PM): DONT CUT IT
Its Korun (11:12:56 PM): im just shaping it apparently
Its Korun (11:13:02 PM): lol bern made the appointment
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:03 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:12 PM): why?
Its Korun (11:13:15 PM): dude seriously, its like taken over my head
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:19 PM): LOL
Its Korun (11:13:21 PM): i cant see
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:24 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:29 PM): im not that bad
Its Korun (11:13:32 PM): and i have like a hair tail
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:40 PM): mine goes into my eyes, but theyre gettin there
Its Korun (11:13:42 PM): like when i put my jacket on
Its Korun (11:13:51 PM): i feal my hair being lifted up
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:54 PM): LOL hair tail
SHiPJiN3 (11:13:57 PM): LOL
Its Korun (11:13:58 PM): so i turn around like someones there
Its Korun (11:14:03 PM): and theres no one ther elol
SHiPJiN3 (11:14:08 PM): lolololol
Its Korun (11:14:22 PM): im goin to that place in town tho
Its Korun (11:14:28 PM): so no supercuts this time lolol
SHiPJiN3 (11:14:31 PM): LOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:14:33 PM): aw man
SHiPJiN3 (11:14:38 PM): ive never been anywhere but supercuts
Its Korun (11:14:48 PM): yeah same here
Its Korun (11:14:56 PM): cept that one barber shop in town
Its Korun (11:15:13 PM): where you used to live in that upstairs appt.
SHiPJiN3 (11:15:16 PM): lol i went there once and the dood noobed my hair like its his job
Its Korun (11:15:23 PM): yeah
Its Korun (11:15:30 PM): those guys are senile or something
SHiPJiN3 (11:15:33 PM): LOL
Its Korun (11:15:38 PM): all they do is watch golf
Its Korun (11:15:44 PM): and then theyre like, oh shit
Its Korun (11:15:53 PM): you only wanted a trim eh?
SHiPJiN3 (11:16:06 PM): lolololololololololololol yeah dood
Its Korun (11:16:44 PM): DUDE
Its Korun (11:16:53 PM): have you seen the boondocks over there yet?
Its Korun (11:16:57 PM): on adult swim?
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:08 PM): i dont have a tv >_<
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:14 PM): and they dont have adult swim here either
Its Korun (11:17:16 PM): dude
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:20 PM): their cn sucks
Its Korun (11:17:23 PM): you have to see this show
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:30 PM): LOL i did over xmas break
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:33 PM): i saw the premeir
Its Korun (11:17:37 PM): its like chapelles show, cept animated
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:37 PM): with the R. Kelly trial
Its Korun (11:17:39 PM): and more guns
SHiPJiN3 (11:17:42 PM): funniest shit ever
Its Korun (11:17:45 PM): lol
SHiPJiN3 (11:18:03 PM): "..little anna...would you consider yourself to be...african-american?"
SHiPJiN3 (11:18:16 PM): anna: NIGGA U BLIND?!
Its Korun (11:18:27 PM): nah dude the best episode
Its Korun (11:18:39 PM): is where they kidnap oprah
SHiPJiN3 (11:18:42 PM): i saw the promo with a pimp named slickback
Its Korun (11:19:00 PM): and the one guy is txting with his sidekick
Its Korun (11:19:05 PM): and the other guy is like
Its Korun (11:19:14 PM): "txting is just nigga technology"
Its Korun (11:19:47 PM): "anything that can't be hooked up to a printer is nigga technology, nothing intelegent was ever said with your thumbs"
Its Korun (11:19:52 PM): and then the other guy is like
Its Korun (11:20:15 PM): "I be txting MAD bitches nigga, and my weed man, he aint like to talk on the phone alot, so i txt my weed man nigga"
Its Korun (11:20:28 PM): and hes like "my point exactly"
Its Korun (11:20:34 PM): and then theres a long pause
Its Korun (11:20:50 PM): and hes like "i sent that bitch a smiley face nigga> bitches love smiley faces"
Its Korun (11:20:56 PM): LOLOL
Its Korun (11:21:22 PM): so now every time i txt, im like "sent that bitch a smiley face"
SHiPJiN3 (11:21:31 PM): LOLOLOL
SHiPJiN3 (11:21:53 PM): HAHAHAHA
SHiPJiN3 (11:22:01 PM): fucking amazing
Its Korun (11:22:18 PM): soon as they put that on DVD im getting that
Its Korun (11:22:23 PM): andDUDE
Its Korun (11:22:36 PM): the episode where martin luther king jr. comes back to life
Its Korun (11:22:37 PM): LOL
Its Korun (11:22:50 PM): and america calls him a terrorist
Its Korun (11:23:18 PM): cause hes all about civil disobediance
Its Korun (11:23:41 PM): and so some congress guy is like "by doign nothing, dr. king is supporting the terrorists"
Its Korun (11:24:11 PM): and then he goes to mcdonolds
Its Korun (11:24:22 PM): and hes like " A BONELESS RIB SNADWICH!!!"
Its Korun (11:26:53 PM): and dude
Its Korun (11:27:12 PM): you know mike shinoda from linkin park is in a new rap group
Its Korun (11:27:21 PM): or manager of them or something
Its Korun (11:27:26 PM): but hes on a few tracks
Its Korun (11:27:36 PM): theyre called "fort minor"
Its Korun (11:29:07 PM): and i gotta poop so brb
Its Korun (11:33:55 PM): gah you byte
Its Korun (11:34:00 PM): brb need to reboot

LOL nbn. catching up with the schloff-ness. And he's shloffin around like hes never schloffed before.

Other than that, a boring day! Played monopoly for PC. cause Hannah and I are gangsta like that. hahaha.

Okay so

2006-03-01T15:30:00.000Z

We didn't actually get to make pancakes yesterday... we never got to it, so we made em this morning =D But i do know that pancake day is something to do with a religeous thing, lent and crap.
Anyways, today it SNOWED!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!
No lectures. w00t!
fricking awesome. Lectures were cancelled, and everyones outside playing in the snow haha. I looked at the weather reports and aparently its gonna snow all week! YEAH!!! that'd be fricking awesome! Hopefully no lectures this week hahaha.

Happy Pancake Day!!

2006-02-28T15:15:00.000Z

Today is Pancake Day in the UK!! WOO!
Lol, no idea why... i'll ask Hannah and elaborate laters. I'm about to go buy some water. My moms sent me American pancake mix, so we're gonna have good pancakes... british ones suck balls, theyre all flat... and crappy... But we're gonna have friggin amaZing pancakes!
So yeah, i know everyone in america is jealous right now ;)
Update on what exactly this is all about later...

Site Updated! =D

2006-02-23T05:43:00.000Z

Added pics to Flickr from Trash tonite =D
Some good pics taken tonight ^_^ And they're all on my brand new flickr premium account ;) So make sure you go visit my flickr page and let me know what you think of them! :) comments are appreciated on any and all photos.
Some awesome ones of me and Hannah were taken, so we were happy with those :)
I also updated some stuff on the site. Check out my sidebar... notice anything?? =^_^=
-Got rid of the webshots link cause i never use that shizz.
-Added links to more sites I actually use lol
-Added the Flickr Badge cause that shizlazz is sexy
-Check out my 30Boxes, cause I added some stuff to my profile page! It now monitors a lot of rss-enabled stuff of mine, even including my last.FM feeds. Uber awesome, i think.
-There's probably even more I did but don't remember, so check it out lol.

I've got a lab from 9~12 today! woo! and then lectures from 2 till 5! HOORAY!! T_T
Laterz...

Hmm... I think it's definately time for a new piercing... Thinking the eyebrow is definately the next one to be done! =D

Oh and Apparently Hannah's Momz, Dad, and sister think I seem really nice.
And her pops is cool with my lip piercing... hehehe. I'm staying at hers for easter break, so that should definately prove to be Interesante!!

Haha, I'm hoping people will enjoy my major web-updating... I forgot how much fun it is to do snizz like that.
Comments are wanted! *cough*Matt*cough*cough* =P

Anyway, off to get ready for my lab... lataaazz xx

Photos Done!

2006-02-22T19:44:00.000Z

Check em out!

Getting around to fixing my websites

2006-02-21T22:18:00.000Z

I'm finally fixing up my websites.
First is Flickr. I'm currently uploading a shitload of pictures up there. Lots of pics of Hannah, so if you haven't had the chance to see them yet, you'll get one soon :)
I fixed up my profile on there, and added a picture of me for my avatar.
Finally =P
I'm currently organizing all the photos i took into sets and categories, etc. I'll put up a link once I've got the finished product all ready.
I hope to have Matt help me get this blog organized so it looks a little cooler, like his haha.
Kay, off to finish organizing my photos. I'll edit this post once im done...

Valentine's Day

2006-02-16T19:45:00.000Z

Was awesome. I had stayed over Hannah's the night before, and when she got up to go to her lecture, I left her present and card on her bed =D so she found it when she got home hehehe.
I got her exactly what she wanted ^_^ She wanted this stuff called "Diamond Strength" which is some sort of nail varnish that has diamond powder in it to make your nails strong and not crack or break. She mentioned it in conversation a while back so i was like "BAM!" and got it =D.
Made her a nice card, and got her some cadbury's eggs cause they're her favorite ^_^
In the card told her to be ready for me to pick her up at 6:30.
Had a few lectures, and then went into town and bought a rose from the florist.
Ran a bit late cause i decided to take an extra shower even tho i had one in the morning, but I got there.
She looked fucking amazing. Had on a black dress that looked like O,O amaZering.
We walked down to the Maharabat where i made reservations for 7pm last saturday.
So we got there and they dont have my name T_T I was gonna injure Apu something bad.
Anyway they gave us a table finally. Food was good =D service a bit slow >_O but all twas aight :)
Afterwards walked out into the rain to the bus stop to call a cab. Came bout ten minutes later and we were cold so we jumped in haha.
Afterwards we went to academi for the Valentines/Latino party. Was meh. The DJ in the latino room sucked balls but it was still fun ^_^ Met Holly, Alex, Joe, Gemma, Pat, and Hannah there.
Went back to Hannah's, and had fun with my present... Sex Dice. Yes. Ladies and Gents, I now own Sex Dice. So we played that... hehehehe ;)
Then watched some Family Guy and Went to Sleep ^_^

Itunes Downsizing

2006-02-12T10:20:00.000Z

Just spent the last hour cleaning up my itunes. There are no longer any duplicate songs, and I downsized alot of music that was high bitrateage (Like 320 kbps... eeep! o_o) and my library has shrank from 13,612 songs to 12,731 songs, and from 57.85 GB to 51.68 GB.
Nearly 1000 un necessary songs tossed (881 to be exact) and about 6GB of space freed.
Awesome =D
Still working on getting rid of music i dont need. Getting there, eh?
Now to shower, and to go into town ;)
Next on my agenda is to clean up this blog. Matt's is looking pretty sharp, so I gotta keep with the times!!
Laters xx
~ Ander

Hmm, so... hi... I'm Ander :P

2006-02-12T07:23:00.000Z

Haha. Last update was January 31st... woops.
Well lets update.
I've been doing shitty at attending lectures. My sleep schedule is so horrible that i keep waking up at 5pm every day >_<
Things with me and Hannah are amazing. Can honestly say I've never been happier with someone.
All my friends think she's awesome, and hot. ^_^ Very happy bout that ;)
I hope over the summer she can come visit me. I want Bern to meet her. Cause for some reason i feel it really important for Bern to like my girlfriend. I will not have a repeat of last time lol...but seriously tho O_O
Would be really cool for Matt to meet her, but its Bern's approval I'm hoping for here :P

In other news, Have an idea for valentine's day! It's so weird, i didnt realize it was valentines day till like...yesterday o_o; woops.
But yeah today I'm gonna see if i can get something nice done for Hannah :)

Tomorrow I'm endeavoring to never miss lectures again unless it's for a good reason. I need to stop it!! :P

Today going into town to shop for a present for hannah... I have no. friekin. Idea. What. To. Get her. o_o; Shit.

Well I hope I'll find something!
Right. Now I need coffee. And a Shower. I plan to get my ass in gear and update more often :
Laters for now.

I suck at updating =(

2006-01-31T19:23:00.000Z

Alot happened since last one lol. Started the second semester. I havent missed a lecture yet which is an awesome start...but its only been two days so gimme the rest of the week yet =P
Friday was my last exam so hannah and i celebrated that nite by going out to time with everyone from J block n that group. Got completely destroyed. Loved it.
Saturday slept...all day... then went with Hannah and Helen to Tesco's and Matalan and got a cool shirt =^.^=
WE WENT TO MICKEY D'S!!!!!!!!!! except the MD's here suxxorz compared to the ones back home. Coke tastes funny too. And Hannah wouldn't let me order my JBC's without pickles/mustard/onions cause apparently its "too much of a fuss" and "she likes mustard/onions" =/ Meh. lol.
Sunday we watched Seasons 1 & 2 of Family Guy! woo!

Lectures are alright. My classes seem more interesting to me somehow, maybe cause i've got a better mindset this semester. I want to do better, and not fail anything, and not procrastinate as badly as i did last semester... we'll see howzit goes, innit.

Tonite staying in with my woman and watching family guy, and laughing at eminem songs cause he's a silly bitch. =P

Meh, im still looking forward to this summer. And im hoping its not as much a dissapointment as last summer. Im hoping there'll be shitloads of chillage, specially with the schloff-ness. I got friends here at uni, but none like the legendary Mikoloff.

I thought i'd have tons of crap to update about, but i cant be bothered going on about the details of all sorts =/

Gotten lazy with the picture-taking...will get better bout that one, innit.

Laterrrrzzzzzzzz

My last Exam

2006-01-27T06:33:00.000Z

FINALLY! LOL! My last exam is in a few hours. Im just revising a bit before i go take it, so's i can pass it...
I. Am. So. Fucking. Exhausted.
Soon as i get out of my exam, Im walking to Hannah's house and passing the fuck out. I'll wake up next week =P
Been not sleeping at all this week... i get really stressed from these damn exams XS
Im so happy its the last one though... and hopefully tonight we'll be doing something fun.
Umm my last few days have been spent pretending im revising, eating, or just hanging out with peoples. We went to view a house last nite but i dont think were getting that one. S'okay i didnt really like it all that much hahaha.
Meh. Listening to LP now. My motivational music ~,^
Switched to other random metal-ness...
Meh nothing more to say hahaha.
Wish me luck on my exam!

~ Ander x

And the picture calls it

2006-01-23T17:24:00.000Z

I've decorated my room some more. Added more photos everywhere, and just sorta dressed the place up. Been keeping it clean, cause cleanliness is right next to godliness.
Friday, it was Joe's Birthday! We went to wetherspoons. Then to Asylum. Our crowd didnt really like asylum too much but i wanted to stay, so stay I did.
Saw Hannah and Helen there, as did i see Dan, and Kay, and some other peeps.
So friday night i sent a text out to hannah asking if she wanted to go out for a drink. We went to the yellow on Sunday.

And the picture calls it: Ander + Hannah; 23-1-06

~Ander x

Sorry I've been sorta not around

2006-01-18T21:15:00.000Z

To my friends in America, I mean. I havent been speaking on AIM in forever. Havent messaged/commented anyone since i been back either. I'm just totally swamped over what with Final exams going on, and struggling to find a house to live in for next year and all that crap. I'll be better off in a couple weeks once finals are over. >_< Till then hope everybody's doin alright, leave me some comments here or on myspaz and i'll do my best to reply asap!!!

Btw to the people who are wondering, no, the lip ring didn't hurt. Carl, the guy who did my piercing, gives you this stuff thats basically liquid cocaine and its fucking awesome. It totally numbs the whole of your mouth and i didn't feel a thing. I'm loving the ring now tho, i swapped the stud for a dark metallic blue ring =D Probably said so before but oh well!

Till laters... xx

Takin a break from revising

2006-01-16T02:46:00.000Z

...not that i can afford one! LOL! oh well innit!
*sigh* circuit theory at 9am... fuckin hell man. gonna die haha.
I decided to take the time to make an update and express the overwhelming positive feelings i'm having. This year is definately going to be a very good one. Some good things are in store for us, and I think it's really important that we're all ready for them, and we make sure to live each day as fucking full and whole-heartedly as humanly fucking possible. There's good shiz in store, innit!!
Been chillin it up with Gill yesterday, watched family guy and chappelle's show till 5am!! YEAH! lol good stuffs.
Some really fucking awesome photos taken at steph's Birthday party!! and an even better video made featuring me and Amy hahaha! I'll get them all uploaded soon! once ive finished exams and i've got time and shiz ill do all this stuff hehe.

Ooo was talking bout this earlier... piercings are addictive... now i want spikes in my left ear and my eyebrow done as well.. soon...

So along with my newfound love for metal and rock-ness comes new favorite bands!
Currents are:
Arch Enemy
As I Lay Dying
Atreyu
Bedlight for BlueEyes
Funeral For a Friend
In Flames
Killswitch Engage
Lamb of God
Trivium

Theres loads more but those are the top 9 =P

Yep, so now back to work... Ugh, pray for me eh?!

The last few days

2006-01-14T17:13:00.000Z

Have been spent doing absolutely nothing which progresses towards academic work. lol.
Wednesday was Stephs Birthday!! She's 21 now and we went to pubs, then to trash, then had an after party over at hers.
Thursday and friday Gill came over and we made dinner and just chilled a bunch =D
Friday night we looked at a house for next year... we're all a bit stressed cause shit keeps falling through, people bail on us, whatever. Sucks innit.
Ive got like 2 pounds to my name.... fuck. Moms going to the bank today tho so i think thats cool.
Tonight, i think Gill's coming over and we're gonna watch some films =) Looking forward to that.
Other than that just stressed as fuck cause i need to study. Circuit theory on monday... anger.. lol.

Lip Piercing complete!

2006-01-11T08:00:00.000Z

=D loves it. Didn't hurt as much as everyone worries about....at all. They gave me anesthetic which has a cocaine base. Was fucking awesome! LOL it makes your mouth go totally numb. You only feel it on the outside, and its nowhere near as painful as getting an injection.
The guy from Dragons (the name of the studio) prescribed me ice & vodka for swelling, pain, and keeping it sanitary. Works like wonders. havent even used ice, the vodka's done well on its own =P
Loving it so far...gonna take some getting used to when i eat, but im happy with it =D
RIGHT, back to doing work cause its due at noon today >_<
Lata

Back at Uni!!

2006-01-10T05:36:00.000Z

Can't really be bothered to make a looong post so ill just say im back in Bangor! woo!
Saw most my friends last night or tonight.
Went to time tonight, was pretty good. The night was not at its best, i felt a bit lonely, but it was otherwise well good =D
went back to rachel's afterwards for some chillin. Was good stuff =D
went back to Adam's afterwards and had some potato waffles and music.
Back in my room cant sleep. Anxious about certain things, but again not going to jump the gun.
Time will reveal all...

--->Edit<--- OH YEAH! im gonna get my lip peirced today =D who wants to come with??

So monday morning is my weekend
I know I jumped right off the deep end
You know that I always want to hesitate
Please remember good things come to those who wait

Last post from America till June...

2006-01-07T23:27:00.000Z

So To all my friends here, im gonna miss ya'll a lot. Hopefully this summer will be filled with lots of chillin and doin stuff together, to make up for the monstrosity known as last summer haha.
Love to all, God Bless, I hope the rest of your year goes awesome =D

I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue...
More than this I wish you could have seen my face
In the backseat staring out the window.
I'll do anything for you...
Kill anyone for you...
So leave yourself intact because I will be coming back
In the phrase to cut these lips, I love you.

The morning will come, in the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest where i will annoy you
With every waking breath until you decide to wake up

I've earned through hope and faith, all the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold, forever.
If morning never comes for either one of us,
Then this i pray to you, wherever

I'll do anything for you..
This story is for you..
Cause I...will do anything for you

So leave yourself intact, cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips, I loved you
The morning will come, in the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you, with every waking breath
Till you decide to
Wake Up...

Back from Hoboken

2006-01-07T06:20:00.000Z

Hahaha had a fucking awesome time just chillin with Kwame. Was fucking hillarious too.
I told him about chavs and now he wants to come visit and go chav-hunting =D
I told him how i miss what we had at stevens. We were a fucking squad man... we were a friekin militant FORCE. Everybody'd watch out when we went places. That was amazing. That is definately something i miss about stevens. Probably one of the very very few things haha.
So Kwame might come visit in May. That'll be cool =D
Marked in your words: I'm the joke, I'm the bastard...

Talked to Kwame bout that as well. He confirmed what i thought. Oh well. in his words..: "Ripped out the list..."

Hahaha. Newayz im off to keep busy till im sleep. Need to do a lot of shit tomorrow.

Damn depression...

2006-01-06T22:02:00.000Z

This sucks lol. Im completely emo'd out. I got like this when i left home last time. And when I left wales to come home. And now im getting emo'd out again cause im leaving home for a second time.
A much longer time actually. When i leave tomorrow night i wont be back until June 10th.
I'll be spending my spring break bouncing around friends' houses because its too friekin expensive to buy a third place ticket.

Im looking forward to getting hugs from people when i get back to bangor... I'll need them.

I'm worried about Amy... She's been depressed as of late. Hopefully all the chocolate im bringing back with me will get her to smile. =)

*sigh* I hate this. im in sucha "life sucks" mood and for no good reason. If I actually had problems i suppose i could just deal with them. But i dont even have any problems, so its just annoying that im feeling like shit for absolutely no reason. *sigh...again..*

So Give em the story they want, you
too...
Give em the story they want, Kiss
to you girl before you fall down and leave me...
So give em the story they want, you
too...before you leave me...
Give em the story they want, you
too... Before...you leave...

God only knows when your word isnt pure
And the blood on your hands isnt yours
I wont believe and word that you tell
And I wont drink the blood if it's spilled...

Finally started some work

2006-01-06T02:32:00.000Z

I've finally begun to work on my work that i have done. I think that rant and drinking red bull all day long has helped alot lol =P
I tried skittles bubblegum today. It's not bad, actually. Very high sugar but its pretty good ^_^
Listening to some new music ive aquired recently and i like. Good shizzle.
Well, guess im back off to work now haha.

Thoughts after reading xanga...

2006-01-05T12:19:00.000Z

First thing i noticed that every post i EVER made back then had some mention of the girl i was dating then. Jesus fucking christ! Nobody does that. What a loser i was. Note to self! Damn. I'm never doin that again. I dont care how much i love a girl, im never being such an immature fag about it.

While I'm on the subject. My ex has been trying to get me to "talk" to her. And then wrote me a letter saying all this shit about how "I really needed to talk but i guess you didn't want to!" and "I tried texting, calling, emailing, IMing, and you didnt respond to any!"
CAN YA FUCKING GUESS WHY?! WE BROKE. UP.
IT'S. OVER.
What the fuck could you possibly want to talk about?! There's nothing to say! LET IT GO! You gave me my shit back, i gave you yours. Done. Move on. Continue life as planned. Jesus.
I even read that fuckin letter aloud to Steph and she said "You know, i don't really see why she'd want to talk to you... when you break up you usually don't want anything to do with the person unless you want something to happen..."
Over. Done. Next issue at hand:

Second thing. I used to write poetry all the time. Didnt publicize all of it, but the posts were made, whether they were public or not. And I noticed once i broke up with my ex my entries gained a lot of substance. I could express myself a lot. I notice i dont do that any more. Going to fix that. Dunno about the poetry... i can only write when it comes to me.

*sigh* I'm falling into a depression again. I'm not sure why. But I am definately getting depressed again. Reading my xanga entries made me miss a few things...

I miss back in the days when everyone would comment my stuff. I miss when people would comment with things like "Yo, come to montclaire. im bored and have nothing to do" for example. Or when Elena used to actually talk to me and just throw random ass comments like "...KY JELLY??!!!"
Those things used to make my day worthwhile. To know somebody was bored enough to think "hey ill make a post on Ander's shizz" *shrug* just talkin my mind. Im sick of censoring myself.
In fact, im gonna mention names, and make it exactly fucking clear what i am thinking about. Then nobody can do this fake ass shit of walking around like "oh, i didnt see, i didnt see, what you talkin bout?"

I miss how it was back when Elena, Ashley, Aro, Jeanie, and Claire would talk to me. And comment my xanga. And send me IMs.
Anytime i talk to them now, it feels like theyre being forced to speak to their dad about menstrual cramps. Jesus christ. I don't think I've done anything to any of you to feel like you don't actually want to talk to me anymore.
Jeanie you're probably thinking "Aw shit, here he goes..." Too bad.
I'm always the one who starts conversation, and the one struggling to keep it alive in the slightest. And it never lives for more than 5 minutes.
To the both of you, Aro, Jeanie, where have the days where you'd spend hours just talking to me about random shit? Whatever was bothering you. whatever was going through your head. Whatever the FUCK you felt like talking to someone about, because you knew you could tell me anything you wanted and it would never make me look at you differently, or judge you, or tell anyone else. I still do not think I have done any of those.
I considered you to be some of my better friends. But i guess the real difference between people who are your friends and those simply enjoying some conversation is made clear when Nancy, Bernadette, Matt, and even Mike and Manny have made the effort to see if they can hang out with me, and you havent.
So I guess this is all in the past now, and I'm letting it go.
It is obvious that those days are over.
And a new sun has risen fearlessly over the horizon.

I'd like to think that my entries can have substance in a positive way. I was showing Jeanie some words shaped in a desirable fasion the other day and she said "Why so negative? Happy things are good tooooooo"
*shrug* Sorry. Somehow I respond best to negative things. As to why? It's because to me, when things are happy and going well, there's no reason to think. There's no reason to respond to it at all, because thats how things should be. When they are going shitty, and you feel depressed, thats when youre supposed to think "Shit, what the fuck am I doing wrong?" because you're not supposed to be living your life like it's a hell.

That day that i showed Jeanie the words in a desirable fasion, we actually talked again. It was one of the nicest feelings i've had in a while, that we actually communicated like we used to. We talked about the new year and our feelings on it. *shrug* I liked it a lot. And I hope we'll have more conversations like that, but i guess its a matter of take whatcha get.

I'm listening to stuff i havent listened to in a long time. Since the summer actually. St. Anger, by Metallica. All in all, i don't really like this album. But I do like the song "The Unnamed Feeling" And remembering, that was one of my songs in early summer. I still love it.

So Why are all my favorite songs so negative? Why is my poetry an expression of depression, anger, pain, and lonliness? Take a wild fucking guess eh? Because thats what i feel! I still feel pain. I still feel fucking lonley as a fucking tree in a desert. I still get really angry because i'm still not happy. I still want more. I always fall in and out of depression. Very easily in fact. The fact that i'm not in touch with some people i liked being close to makes me depressed if i sit and think about it. Many things make me depressed. "The first step towards change is discontent"

Let's just say, I am very, very, very discontent with the way things are.

I'm looking forward to going back to the UK. I miss my friends there a lot.
They give me hugs. I like hugs.

*toast* Here's to this year being the best so far, eh? No, really, I'm being serious. In writing everything I have written here, I've let it all go. That's why i wrote it. It's there now, and not in my heart any longer.

I feel loads better actually =)

So it's been a while...

2006-01-05T12:06:00.000Z

And I've got a lot to update on. *deep breath* here goes.

Last week, thursday, I met up with Nancy and Mario in NYC. We wandered around chinatown trying to find the bubble tea place which we eventually did. We went to a place called the Red Lion for lunch. Was an awesome place run by an irish dude. Got my fries/chips to go and ate them that night at dinner =D Have now got Nancy and Mario loving bubble tea. We're definately gonna do this again. =)

The next day, Friday, Did the same with Bernadette. This time, i remembered much better where i was going. Got some bubble tea, which bern enjoyed as well ^_^ And then went looking/poking around all those little random chinese shops. Got my mom a fortune buddha and myself a bracelet with jade animal carvings on it.

New Years Eve, went down to NP and got picked up in summit by Nancy and Paul. On the way back to hers, we stopped by cvs so i could get some contact solution, and said hi to mario. We laughed at his misfortune at us having drawn penises on his car ;) He had his lunch break so we went to belariva's for some pizza. Went to her house and played SNES all night long =D was fucking great.
Next morning, mickey d's for lunch, and more SNES.

Monday, Matt came and picked me up from my house and we went back to his for some microwave bacon breakfast =D He got God of War for xmas, and hadnt played it yet. We opened it, and it was so god-like that we played it all fucking day long. Later, Tim came over, then Bern, then Tim's sister, Sarah joined us, as did Julie. Matt then left and picked up Mike and brought him back to join our little get-together ^_^

since then ive been playing FF8 cause its godly, and watching tv, and sleeping at such odd hours i miss 90% of the day. That ends now, cause im staying up today.

I've read back on some xanga entries....and its inspired what i'm going to write about in a separate post.

2006: Year of the Dog

2006-01-02T04:34:00.000Z

Paradoxically the year of the Dog will bring happiness and dissent in the same boat. The Dog's domestic auspices will bring harmony to home life, patriotism to one's country and unwavering fealty to whatever cause you wish to support.

On the other hand, his rigid willpower and unbending sense of justice will also lead to major confrontations with the weaker side getting the upper hand. It is a year in which controversial issues will be awarded a hearing and unconventional but effective changes will be introduced. Equality and liberty will be advocated by the Dog's noble influence.

We will become more idealist in our views, shedding some materialism by doing charitable acts or otherwise championing some worthy projects, It is a year in which we will shift away from the pursuit of the almighty dollar and become a little more reflective. A perfect time to reassess our sense of values, polish up our virtues and go on crusades against tyranny and oppression.

In spite of the Dog's dismal outlook, he brings stability because people do not usually date to challenge his authority when they see how intent he is on keeping the peace. The year of the Metal Dog is more feared than others as he is said to bring war and calamity.

Needless to say, the Dog's resoluteness and intensity will cause clashes, upheavals and rebellions of all sorts, but it will be his good sense and largess that will also smooth things out in the end. His unselfishness will predispose us to be more bighearted than we normally are.

This will also be a year in which we will wish we could relax more without the cynical Dog constantly casting worries on our minds. Then again, perhaps it will be the Dog's ever-watchful eye that will be the main force in keeping this time calm.

Aside from this feeling of uneasiness, there should be no cause for alarm. We can go about our business as usual since the Dog makes the perfect sentry.

The Dog's year will lend integrity to our intentions and make us act in good faith. Nothing should concern us so long as we stick to the righteous path.

Why i love Kwame

2005-12-30T05:30:00.000Z

amereto4: but concerning friends
amereto4: keep everyone the same distance from you
amereto4: and expect nothing
amereto4: no special treatment
amereto4: treat everyone good
amereto4: and expect nothing back
amereto4: so when you do get something
amereto4: it means twice as much
amereto4: its a lonely way to look at it
amereto4: but you are aware of peoples intentions better
amereto4: and you will always feel good about it
amereto4: the only thing you can control in life is you so rely on you.. and if someone else helps... its even better
amereto4: but don't wait for it
SHiPJiN3: true
amereto4: wonder how i'm aways ina good mood
SHiPJiN3: you jus dont need anyone else's reassurance to keep you happy
amereto4: so true
amereto4: its up to me
amereto4: so i choose once i'm alive to be happy about it
SHiPJiN3: true
amereto4: keep that in mind when you wondering where some people are
SHiPJiN3: word man
amereto4: for real

And its days like this

2005-12-28T23:30:00.000Z

That make me wish to god i had a fucking car.

---

And I now have nothing
But your heartbeat in my head
And a photograph of my travelling friend
So what the hell is your name
And can you explain this mess
It seems your playing a game
Where you only know how to take out the best

So I'm halfway through my break

2005-12-28T01:28:00.000Z

And I have not done one bit of revising. Fuck.
I just cant bring myself to do it. Im gonna go clean my room cause its a mess and lord knows i cant work in an untidy room.
Not much else to update about eh? Spoke to Bex and Amy on the phone today.
Sat around on the myspaz.
New pic.
Kthxbai.

The night draws to a close...

2005-12-26T04:36:00.000Z

...And to all a good night.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2005-12-25T13:32:00.000Z

Hope Everyone has a friekin awesome day and has all their wishes fulfilled.

Merry Xmas (Eve)

2005-12-24T18:23:00.000Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS (Eve)
Haha. Yeahhh thats really all i gotta say.
---
Eventually it will burn out and i'll be left cold with the memories of how it used to be. Oh well. Been there, done that, nothing new, innit!!

I've been to Hot Topic

2005-12-23T20:07:00.000Z

And I've aquired my scene gothic trousers. Fucking mint. I love them lol theyre black with loads of chains.
I finally got a couple belts as well, i really needed belts =P
Did some other shopping as well.
I love hot topic.

Just back from the city...

2005-12-22T23:38:00.000Z

Bought some stuff.
Met up with Amy from Portsmouth and walked around with her a bunch, then met her sister, aunt and friend Jen for lunch and stuffs. Walked around loads, did some shopping...spent $100...yeahhhh...next subject hahaha. Was loads of fun. Really tired by the end of the day tho.
Saw Amy onto her van thingy that took her to the airport, then walked to Port authority with Jen, stopping in the Hello Kitty store so she could get some stuff.
Bus ride home was really tired lol. Almost fell asleep.
Home now, chillin. Bored. Tired. Hungry...

The "Hug is Good Enough" Policy

2005-12-21T20:40:00.000Z

As everyone knows, we are all students. No student has money. So, to make it easier on everyone, every xmas i implement a "Hug is good enough" policy to save everyone money. For xmas, i'd like nothing but a hug, because its the xmas spirit that counts, not the box you give someone. So. Yes. A hug for me
A hug for you
Cause im poor as shit
And so are you!!

There. i even made a poem. Happy?? Damn fucking well better be. Or ill be forced to...

...negotiate strenuously... *cough*big stick*cough*

Chillin

2005-12-20T20:23:00.000Z

Listening to musix. w00t. Just copied the stuff i downloaded to my mom's comp onto mine. Sweet. Good Shiz. Loads of rap songs i missed hearing.
Went to the gym. First day back at it, always discouraging, but it was exercise so im happy. might go back again a bit later.
My stomachs been botherin me...hopefully its just the last of the crypto and its gonna go away soon =P
Meh. So umm... yeah not much of an update. lol.

MORNING!

2005-12-20T12:39:00.000Z

Everyone cry
Everyone cry
Everyone cryyy
CRY! PHILOSOPHY!
CRY! OF PHILOSOPHY!

Loving system in my stereo...

Im extremely hungry. Going to the supermarket before mom goes to her (hopefully) last day of work. Shes transferring from the corporate side because it sucks, to the franchise side of the company. She really wants the job cause its loads easier, pays loads more, and she can work from home. So she's being nice to the people on the corporate side and staying to help out for a few days even tho she quit, just to make it look good. So hopefully they wont ask her to come in more. =/

My Cell phone from the UK works here in the USA. Weird. Our phones dont work over there, but theirs work here. T_T It switches me to either T-Mobile, or Cingular, whichever is better in range. They charge me loads more for roaming, but at least it works. I called Bex, and i Do believe it cost me about a quid per minute. Yeeeessshhh thats a lot. from 10p to a pound. Owch, not doin that again. Good to kno it works tho hehe.

Dunno what i wanna do today. Might go to the gym cause my goal is to work out a bunch whilst home.
*gets up and gets cereal...LiFE cereal to be exact*

Good shit. Ack >_O The sun's rising right into my eyes...teh burrrnnzz... O_<
meh ramblin now arent i?
yeeahh... gonna stop now. see ya o_o;

So I'm Home...

2005-12-20T00:26:00.000Z

And i'm extremely bored and dissapointed. Havent done anything. At all. Sitting here staring at a computer screen like i was in the summer. Tis sad really. Well, i suppose im here for my mom really. She missed me a lot. Such can be determined by the fact that theres nothing but candy, chocolate, soda, cookies, and general SHIT in the fridge/cabinets. When i left there was actual food. Now its back to how it was before the summer when i told her to buy some real food.
Meh. I want to go back to uni. Sorry if that dissapoints people, but i miss everyone from uni. I miss the atmosphere of being completely surrounded by people who are your friends.
Im bored enough that i think im gonna go start reading my notes so I'm prepared for finals.
Listening to the newest Thrice album. Matt was right, its very different from their older stuff but i still like it just because i love Thrice.

Welcome Home, hey?

HOME!

2005-12-19T19:16:00.000Z

Omg so good to be home!!! Loads of work to do tho. I found out today the deadline for my Datacomms ain't till the 13th of january!! WOOOO!!! THANK U GOD!
Means i can finish em, haha.
Mmm yeah so i made tons of new friends at the airport...
Met a girl named Amy from Portsmouth who is visiting NYC for the week, so i think im gonna go meet her there. Sent her an email earlier ^_^
Met a girl named Sharon who is actually the manager of a band called One Hundred Hours. Theyre awesome. I dled some samples of their stuff, theyre fuckin Mint. Hopefully they play near Bangor so's i can go see them!!
So im sitting here, chattin with some friends from uni...and i really miss them :( Bex especially. Meh. Soon we shall create chaos again.. muahahahahahaaaaa!!
Omfg i missed my stereo so much... like wow. Im blasting the shizz now and i cant get enough haha. I wanna buy some moosic...not that i dont have enough rofl. 12387 songs....after deleting about 1000 that i dont listen to... XD
Oy vey... slept from 9:30pm to 1:45. w00t! lol. Im borrreedddd. somebody call me and tell me they wanna chill!!

New Jersey Bound

2005-12-19T03:12:00.000Z

Innit.

For everybody who always used to talk shit, say shit, said I wouldnt be shit

2005-12-16T06:06:00.000Z

This one's for alla you mothafuckas out there. Ya'll know who ya'll are.
This gonna be one you can get lubed n ready to shove all up in ya fuckin asses.
Then we'll see who ain't shit.

Goofing with hair...

2005-12-11T09:54:00.000Z

was bored this morning waiting till 10am when subway opens, so let me know what you think plz.

So I want to change my look...

2005-12-11T06:40:00.000Z

Definately want a new hairstyle. I've had the same shit for so long. My friends here at uni have convinced me to grow it out, so definately doing that. But after its been grown, i want to do something radical to it. Oh thats right. I used the word radical. Lol.

Also want to change my style a bit. Wear more rock/metal clothes. Just because thats mainly what i listen to, and i'd quite enjoy trying a new style. i've been ghetto/prep for years and i need something new.

New me, new look, it all goes together, non?? Definately hitting up Hot Topic when I get home. Definately gonna see what else is around as well. Gonna ask people around what i should do with the hair.

Any and all suggestions are completely welcome!! So please let me know what you think!!!

Okay...

2005-12-11T04:22:00.000Z

SO I think that my pills are making me ill. So my mom suggested me not taking them for a day, and see if i stop getting sick. Good plan.

I'm watching a concert live through media player, courtesy of http://www.kroq.com
Good shit. It's on tomorrow night as well, in case you wanted to watch some =D
GODLY shiz. Korn's doin their last song, and it pwnz.

Im hungry. Mite make some rice in the commercial break before NIN. =D

Don't Believe...

2005-12-10T14:44:00.000Z

That the weather is perfect the day that you die...

So now ive got the water parasite

2005-12-10T02:49:00.000Z

No fucking clue how. crazy shit. guess thats the conscequences of living in sheep town. I am so scared of failing this semester because i couldnt get my work done in time.

Fuck.

Been in Bed All Day...

2005-12-10T00:16:00.000Z

Doing absolutely nothing. I have felt that bad. I cant wait until im not fucking sick anymore. I hate this shit. Ugh.

Im really bored, lol. Been sitting/laying in bed all friekin day and now i wanna do stuffs.

Amy and Bex came to visit me before they went out, was hillarious cause they were already drunk. And the people in the hall opposite mine put a little piece of paper on the wall above the door bell saying "Please do not ring doorbell after 11pm" So i hear Bex and Amy laughing outside and i look and Bex falls down laughing hysterically saying "It's after 11 and we rang the doorbell hahahahahaha" and then Amy runs over and rings it like a billion times LOL!! I love them, they're friekin awesome. Can't wait till we're all living together in a house next year, its gonna be awesome!!

Listening to Boxcar Racer, and Panic! At the Disco. Good stuffs. Well im off to find something to entertain me...

Don't you see, I'm the narrarator,

2005-12-09T09:47:00.000Z

And this is just the prologue...

Woke up at 8 when my alarm rang. Was nice to get up, but holy hell i felt like shit. aches everywhere and the pulsing in my ears. I took my pill, and as usual it made my stomach go funny, and painful.
Those mini cornish pasties i made in the oven last night were absolutely horrible. Way too much fucking salt. I guess it's just like those cookies you get from the italian bakeries in the city. Just don't settle for any imitations.

I tried to go back to sleep till bout nine. I sorta drifted in and out. Finally at 9:30 i got up, and now im sitting here in my bed making this entry. Laptops are the shizz.

Today gonna do work, and get as much as i can done before i go out to asylum tonight. Gonna be fun, and ill ask adam if i can take the pictures cause ill be the only sober one. =P It'll give me somethin to do during the times it gets boring!! And this way our pictures will come out much better.

Listening to Thrice at the moment <3

Sometimes i wonder about certain people. But then I realize that when it comes down to it, it really doesnt matter, it won't change my progression through life.

"No regrets
No regrets, just rebirth
Move forward, and ignite.
Incandescent Reinvention
A new renaissance
A new fire each day
A new fire each day"

The muscles in my chest that are in and around my ribs ache as well. Probably from coughing so much. It sucks. A lot.
My ears cleared a bit last nite tho, so i can definately hear a lot more. Not completely better but still not as bad as it was, so I'm thankful. You never really realize how much you enjoy being able to hear things until you nearly can't do it anymore. :) Thankfully I can!

Right so i decided to stay up

2005-12-08T09:59:00.000Z

Meh.. so im still up. Hopefully ill get to reset my sleep schedule. Im gonna take a shower and then get to work on my shit. got a week left, innit!!
and son of a BITCH!!! something keeps fucking BITING ME!!! AAAGGHHH!!! Think its a fucking spider or some shit!!! That little fuckers got me on my left arm, and left inner thigh!! RAARRGGHH!!

I need a girlfriend... :( lol

to the shower i go. =P

Just back from Adam's room

2005-12-08T05:07:00.000Z

Went to adam's room, watched Gone in Sixty Seconds. Ace film, that. Chilled with Adam, Mullen, Mike, Sam, Jesus and Amy. Amy came over to my room to get me, then we walked downstairs to Adam's. After the film, sat around chillin, everyone went home, and then Coop came over. was just me Adam and Coop, and we ate some potato smilies, and waffles and just sat listening to music, looking at google earth, and i gave Adam all my pictures of New York that were on my Hard drive. Can't wait to get home and be able to take loads of pictures!!! =D

Was standing out in the hall talking to Amy for a bit before she left and we were talking bout how we're gonna miss everyone when we go home for xmas. :( No hugs for three weeks, innit!!!
We're gonna dai. :( Awww... I'm gonna miss everybody here. Specially Amy, and her hugs. :(

Ugh, got loads of work to do over the next few days. Shittttt. Sucks. Gonna try and sleep now, after i upload a bunch more pictures to my flickr. I plan to have it organized soon, so everyone can see my friends, and how much fun we have when we go out, innit!!

Btw, whoever left that comment, if you happen to be sexy, single, and happening, hit me up ;)

Ill.....Again....

2005-12-07T20:29:00.000Z

Fuck. Inner ear infections on BOTH sides, chest congestion and a heavy cough to go with, fever, aches, chills, omfg. I've not stopped being ill since i've got to uni. I cant wait for vacation, but before that i've got a shitload of WORK i've gotta do. MOTHER FUCKER!!! So sick of this... ugh.
I so can't to get home and see my friends. :) I'm gonna miss my friends from uni tho...

My new Style...

2005-12-07T04:16:00.000Z

Right! so I've shown my people from home my new style and got some mixed reactions. the most funny of which are here:

EpiphAlways: i dont know either way is cute
EpiphAlways: I have this problem with guys who dont shave LOL but it does look cute
EpiphAlways: it makes me want to scratch them XD
EpiphAlways: it'd bother me XD
EpiphAlways: if i had one
EpiphAlways: thats why I love those shaving commercials
EpiphAlways: im like: :D smoooth.

EpiphAlways: LOL you look like someone whos going to sacrifice me to the devil O_O when you dont shave
SHiPJiN3: O_O
SHiPJiN3: =O
EpiphAlways: LOL
SHiPJiN3: LOL
EpiphAlways: im SERIOUS dude
EpiphAlways: mufasa? had a beard
EpiphAlways: Jafar? beard.
SHiPJiN3: mufasa was cool
SHiPJiN3: he was the sexy dad who unfortunately died
SHiPJiN3: and jafar...
SHiPJiN3: umm...
SHiPJiN3: ...got any other examples????
SHiPJiN3: lol
EpiphAlways: PROBABLY
EpiphAlways: all evil guys have beards
SHiPJiN3: but i'm not evil!!!!!
SHiPJiN3: i'm sexy ;-)
EpiphAlways: ok but when girls kiss you, they're going to be stopping mid way to scratch their chins and pout at you
EpiphAlways: so DONT COME CRYING TO ME
EpiphAlways: when they do so
SHiPJiN3: LOL
SHiPJiN3: girls never kiss me... :'(
EpiphAlways: lol YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?
EpiphAlways: beard.
SHiPJiN3: LOL
EpiphAlways: thats right..
EpiphAlways: thaaats right :-P
SHiPJiN3: hahahaha
SHiPJiN3: XD
SHiPJiN3: i could see you sittin there
SHiPJiN3: with your black mama head goin
SHiPJiN3: "MMMMMMhhmmm..."
EpiphAlways: LOL
SHiPJiN3: LOL!
SHiPJiN3: well when you see me when i'm home, you can see if you really dont like it haha
EpiphAlways: ok
EpiphAlways: but if i dont
EpiphAlways: im making it a painful process
EpiphAlways: of removal
EpiphAlways: involving hedge clippers O_< tape ="D">.O
SHiPJiN3: good thing i know you flinch if i start to move my finger to poke you
SHiPJiN3: ~.^
EpiphAlways: diiie
SHiPJiN3: hahaha you love it really ;-)
SHiPJiN3: but um...
SHiPJiN3: hmm...
SHiPJiN3: im hoping youll just find me sexy anyway o_o;
SHiPJiN3: just so i dont have to risk a Jeanie running after me with hedge clippers
SHiPJiN3: a weed whacker
SHiPJiN3: scissors
SHiPJiN3: and some nitroglycerin o_o;
SHiPJiN3: o and tape
EpiphAlways: ashley has a pic to show you
EpiphAlways: of what will happen
EpiphAlways: should you continue growing this

...turns to ashley...
OrangeMoon: i found the perfect way to explain to you that beards. are. bad.
OrangeMoon: =
OrangeMoon: THAT WILL BE YOU.
OrangeMoon: and that is the ENDof you.
SHiPJiN3: LOL
SHiPJiN3: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
OrangeMoon: ITS TRUE
OrangeMoon: ITS. TRUE.
OrangeMoon: lol WELL ILL ELAVE YOU WITH THAT THOUGHT
OrangeMoon: as i go to bed
OrangeMoon: NIGHT ^_^
OrangeMoon direct connection is closed.
SHiPJiN3: lol
SHiPJiN3: nite nite... o_o;;
OrangeMoon: ^_^

Right.. o_o lol.

picture is on the right there, in case you wanna chekkit out!!

Let's See what I can't Do..

2005-11-29T07:28:00.000Z

Sweet blasphemy my giving tree
it hasn't rained in years.
I bring to you this sacrificial offering of virgin ears.
Leave it to me, I'll remain free
from all the comforts of home
and where that is
I'm pleased as pissed to say
I'll never really know.

Micro Electronics Labs
Micro Electronics Full Lab Report
Micro Electronics Final Tutorial Sheet
Algorithm Design Lab 4
Algorigthm Design Lab 5
Introduction to Data Comm's Labs.

We Need Guidance, We've Been Mislead

2005-11-28T14:00:00.000Z

Had the most amazing dream last night...

I met this girl who was absolutely gorgeous. We started hanging out, and she was perfect. She didn't have "issues". I guess she was a reflection of what i want to be. But she was genuinely happy. And stunningly beautiful.

You can guess how dissapointed i was when i woke up.

"So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time.
You gave it all away.
It was mine.
So when you're dead and gone,
Will you remember this night?
Twenty years now lost.
It's not right.
It's not right."

"Everything has fallen to pieces
Earth is dying, help me Jesus
We need guidance, we've been mislead
You and hostile, but not stupid"

Why I'm glad to have left the hellhole known as Stevens Insitute of Technology

2005-11-24T15:57:00.000Z

http://www.cs.stevens.edu/~pmainwar/

If you're bored, worth reading. Now you'll see why i was totally miserable at that fucking place.

Safe as FUCK, Mate!

2005-11-24T13:23:00.000Z

Goldie Lookin' Chain concert was fucking awesome. Their opening band was called "The Automatics" And they weren't too bad. They were an Indie band...but the keyboarder was just a litttttle crazy... he did some screaming which gave it a harder touch, but they mainly were indie. They had a song called "Raoul" and they told us that there was a guy back where they lived named Raoul and he always makes them cookies or something... i was kinda drunk so i dont really remember all that well the details rofl, but it was something like that. "Let's go see Raoul....Let's go see Raoul!!"
"What's that coming over the hill, Is it a MONSTA??! is it a MONSTA??!"

hahaha, safe as fuck mate, safe as fuck.

GLC Came on, and they were fucking awesome. Funny as hell, I loved it. Especially that song called "Chav school" roflmao.

For everybody back home, GLC is a rap group, made up of a bunch of Metalheads who decided to start making rap music, and they take the piss out of chavs in all their songs. its fucking amazing. I love them so much hahaha.

"Oi son! Your Mrs. is a Nutter!"

Safe as fuck mate, safe as fuck. <--- GLC's catchphrase hehe. Amazing. Shoulda got one of the shirts saying it rofl.

Woke up today, kinda late, i missed my first lecture, and i was still feeling a bit drunk so i sorta just sat there lying in bed staring at my room, just sort of amazed at everything in it, lol. Somehow I managed to get myself up and into a cab to make my second lecture.

Bex is fucking amazing. She gives the best advice ever, and she's really like the older sister i wish i had all my life.

Such a good nite. Memories to last a lifetime.

~ Ander

Coheed here I come!

2005-11-23T13:50:00.000Z

If you have a Myspace, and Coheed is indeed your friend, then you've seen the bulletin! Coheed and Cambria are touring the UK along with their good friends...
not once...
not twice..

BUT THRICE!!!!

FUCKING GODLY!

I've just completed the purchase of my tickets.

At 8PM on 2nd February I will be rocking the fuck out at my first "real" concert, and with none other than my two favorite bands...on the same. fucking. stage.

You all know you're jealous! ;-)

Good Morning, America.

2005-11-21T10:49:00.000Z

When I was a kid, and I'd wake up for school, my mom'd always have that show on tv. I used to hate it, always the same shit, some old guy talking about things he didn't understand. Used to annoy the crap out of me, but now somehow i sorta miss it. Being woken up by my mom yelling at me cause school starts in 20 minutes. Meh.

It was 9am today, and I was awake. Well...sorta. Rowan bought me a coffee in the cafe.
Good shit.

Okay, so now to describe the end of my mini-vacation. Was good shit.

Friday, went out to time, and it was a good night out. Danced to some hip-hop, and just had a good friggin nite. Stayed up till bout 7am talking to Ben and Steph, and they planned to go walking in the mountains the next morning so i told Ben to give me a call once he was up.

Woke up at quarter to 11, met up with Ben, and Lisa, Ben's friend from home. They came to my room, and then we walked down to Weatherspoons for some good ass breakfast.

Steph caught up with us once we finished eating, and we headed up the hill towards St. Mary's. We stopped off at Mullen's Block to say hi, and we knocked on the door, and he goes "Go Away!" Lolol, eventually he opened up and we sat and chilled in his room for a bit.

Left, and walked further up the hill, and through some roads and met up with one of Ben's friends, i know how to say his name but not sure how to spell it, so ill confirm that and then put it in here... =P

Newayz, he went to go get his boots and would meet up with us on the trail.
Oh my friggin Lord, everything we passed was gorgeous. We walked through random back roads, sheep farms, mud-covered hills, rocks, fences, all sorts of shit till we came to a nearby farmer who told us that the farm next door was home to a lunatic woman who has posted signs saying that anyone walking on the property would be killed. He told us that she shoots slings and arrows at anyone walking by, because she's a total nutter. O_O Was scary as hell...

He and his wife were walking up the hills as well, so he said he'd lead us to a place which was bout halfway to the very top of the hill. Once we got there...?

Holy. Fucking. Ass. Nancy? Aro? You'd have gladly shot and killed someone to have been standing where i was. We didn't even make it to the top of the hill, yet we could well see all of bangor, the cities next to it, the Menai Strait, and most importantly, the Irish Sea. And on days when it isnt foggy, you can see the Isles off the coast of Ireland.

We took photo's all the way, but unfortunately the batteries died before we got to the place with the good view. >_<>_< ouch.

Stopped off at Morrison's, picked up some mexican dinner kits. Everyone went home and showered, then met up in Steph's kitchen to make our feast. Was fucking lush. Good shit.

That nite, Ben and everyone went out, but I stayed in watching tv and talking to Bex, cause she was Ill. Sunday was a chill day... woke up at like 5pm which i hated cause it makes me feel like the day is gone and i can't accomplish dick shit. Watched loads of Family Guy with Bex, and just chilled out and kept her company, ate chocolate, and helped her out with Laundry. Then went to Rowan's for more family guy.

And then the beginning of this entry happened.

Wow that was long, but good. I'm loving this blog now.

It's a new week, and i plan to attend every lecture, and catch up, and do work, and all that jazz.
Was just thinking this today. I know a bunch of people here in Bangor who are like "Omg, i hate Bangor, I hate this uni, I hate the people here, I wanan go home, omgf omgf *emo* *emo* *emo*"
And I don't see why. Coming here was the best choice I've made so far in my life. You guys have no idea how happy I am with how things are. I've made some of the most amazing friends here. I've got the most gorgeous scenery ever in my friekin back yard. And I'm finally making some sort of progress in the right direction towards a degree and a job, and a life.
I'm happy. :-)

Hope everyone's day goes well. Miss everybody from home. xxx

~Ander

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RIGHT! Here's the photo's from my phone, uploaded onto my new Flickr

Laundry and Lunar Light

2005-11-18T02:35:00.000Z

Moon's really bright. Clear skies tonight. I wish the lights on campus were off so we could look at the stars. There's gotta be a place around here to go look at them. Plan to do that at some point.

Today was chill. Been really homesick this week, so its just gone to crap as far as doing schoolwork. I decided to sort of take a mini vacation and take a few days and not think about work and just do things i needed to do like go to buy food and snizz. I did that, and im happy with how im feeling. I feel good. Not totally happpy, but much much better than i was on monday.

Still listening to Coheed like a true addict. They played it at trash last night, "Devil in Jersey City". Made me even more homesick cause that song reminds me of driving home through the Watchung Reservation at like 2am after seeing a late nite movie with matt, and doing 60mph around the pitch-black turns.

:-( Yeah, a bit sadening. I hate not having smiley's... hmm. let's see if i can fix that a little later. Doing laundry at the moment. Just chillin. The damn machine lost count of my shit again, so i've gotta wait for it to kick in again. gonna check it right now actually...brb.

Back. Saw a cute girl in the laundry room. Alas, no words exchanged. Oh well.

My iTunes is being gay. I have to convert the songs, album by album. otherwise theyre not gonna get done because for some fucking reason, iTunes crashes when i tell it to convert all of em. So here's to sitting up all night converting the shit.

Meh. Feel better now, and i was chillin with Rowan, im supposed to go back but im enjoying being alone in my room for now. Listening to Coheed, and cleaning. Dunno why but I feel good. :) Let's hope the trend continues.

Digital Camera, or iPod Mini...?

2005-11-16T02:55:00.000Z

Aite, so after my mom paid my tuition for school on her credit card, and then paid it with the load we got, she earned a bagillion buyer points. well, she's got 22k and can get it to like 25k with buying groceries and snizz.

So. With those buyer points, i can buy a gift, and my mom's gonna let me pick what i want.

There's tons of random stuff, all really cool, but the two most eye-catching to me is a blue iPod Mini, and a 5.3MP Fuji FinePix A350 digital camera.

I'm leaning towards the camera because i've got an mp3 player, and i dont need another. And I'd love to be able to just take my own photos any time i wanted to.

So that's definately what i think i want, but some input would be appreciated =D

I wanna go home...

2005-11-14T16:01:00.000Z

Everybody's got a reading week. So's they're all going home for like a week cause there's no lectures or anything.

I'd love to just be a 5 hour train ride from home. It'd be frickin awesome.

I crave a root beer. Not just any root beer. It has to be from Matt's house. Dood, even if ur in nawlins for my whole vacation, ur leaving a can in ur mailbox so's i can go get it. lol.

Meh.

*Dances to coheed*

Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops

2005-11-14T08:09:00.000Z

Dear my Friends,
In the time we've spent forever after beyond this, when will our nightmare ever end?

Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops...
Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops...
Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops,
Forever You Will
Forever You Will Learn.

Good song. Been in a Coheed mood all night, ever since Amy told me she loves coheed like whoah, and is in love with "The Suffering" From the new album. Fuckin awesome. Started listening with The Second Stage Turbine Blade, and now I'm on In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3.

Matt made a good point about the song files on your computer. Having 192kps instead of 128 wont make much difference when the CD is 1448kbps. o_O Guess im gonna have mine change itself whilst im out! lol.

Today probably gonna just do some work, see what I can get done, and then tonite I'm going out cause Steph's Twin Sister, Sarah is visiting from Cornwall, so I'm going on a Pub Crawl with everybody. Should be fun, and I'm bringing both the Disposable Camera's I bought so's I can have tons of Pictures.

Good shit.

I want to start working out again but I feel so lazy. Rowan said sometimes just saying fuck it and starting makes you have the energy to do it from then on, so I might just say fuck it and go to the gym today rofl. But I kinda don't like going to public gyms. Just cause when you go, like over here you get the fuckin rugby meatheads who start actin a fool in the gym. Just cause thats what tough guys do. Kinda funny when I'm half their size yet more a threat to everyone in the room than they are. =P Oh well. I miss the gym in the building next to mine at home. Nobody uses it cause it's all adults who are working all day, so i can go there in the afternoon and no one bothers me. It's great being able to do a 2 hour workout for free haha.

I love coheed. Just so you know. lol.

Mmm. Starting to babble. XD

Laters.

I need a camera...

2005-11-13T08:25:00.000Z

I wanna take new pix cause i look sorta different now. Havent shaved in a long time. Everyone tells me i look better unshaven, so thus is what i've done. My hair's longer now, and I gel it up uber spikey, like explosion hair. An expression of how much i love my feeling of freedom.

Plan to get pics up soon, hope you will like em.

I also plan to make a photo album of all my people here at uni, so you guys can visualize who i'm talking about when I mention people hehe.

I've been So Lazy with this damn Blog...

2005-11-13T05:55:00.000Z

Woops. I'll try and update more often, but It's hard to make it a priority with the amount of work I have, and how tired I get when I come home from a long day of lectures and labs.

Ugh.

Gonna spend some time fixing up my computer and making it look how I want.

Good times this weekend, Mullen is my fucking hero lol.

Eyyyyyy, fuckiiiiiiin mate! Oy wot tha fuck ya lookin at, ya fuckkin goth?

hahahah. good shit.

Today I wanna exercise, and do work, and just take a day to myself. Don't really feel like seeing many people, just wanna be me. Hehe. Gotta drink lots of coffee so i stay awake!! wooooo!!

I know you won't make this hard.

2005-11-09T03:50:00.000Z

Studying for a Modelling & Analysis test tomorrow...which is basically Calculus I. Lord knows I do not comprehend calculus, but I'm extremely logical.

Therefore, I am going to fail.
---
Get up, get out, get away.
Move by, Move on, Move astray.
And hope you might look back on us today.
I know you won't make this hard.

Fuckiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin mate!

2005-11-07T16:41:00.000Z

Woke up at 8:20 today... realized its too damn early...went back to bed till like quarter to 2. Oops. Lol. Still feel tired, maybe cause i slept too much? Oh well. Listened to Armor for sleep while i was sleeping. Loving the emo. Fuckiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin emo maaaaaaate!! Got some tears on ya face, innit? Aw what ya lookin' at ya mosher?

lolol fuckin chavs...

Newayz, kinda bored so im gonna do some work...hopefully =X